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With Honor
We all have those moments. They are the moments when we see our heroes, men and women already full of the richness of excellence, reach into their vast reservoir of talent and endow the world with a fragment of memory so fantastic that we are sure it must be God’s own hand that has frozen the timepieces of our consciousness. Game 1 of
the 1988 World Series. It is the ninth
inning, and the Los Angeles Dodgers are trailing 4-3. With one man on, Dodger’s manager, Tommy Lasorda, sends a barely mobile
Kirk Gibson in to pinch-hit for Alejandro Pena. Gibson, barely able to walk, stood strong
against the daunting Dennis Eckersley.
The count had gone to 3 balls and 2 strikes when Fate held Destiny’s
hand and they both winked. Eckersley
threw his pitch and the hobbled Thor swung his mighty hammer. For the first time in history a man made
every boy’s fantasy come true, becoming the last-swing savior and bringing his
team home on his shoulders. To
break free from earthly bonds and see your native soil through Heaven’s eyes
must make the heart ache with joy. On
July 20, 1969, Neil Armstrong, Michael Collins, and Buzz Aldrin did better than
that. They piloted a machine designed
by man through a sea of countless stars, designed by our Creator, and landed
upon the moon. Five hundred million
people watched as Armstrong’s feet pressed lightly into the lunar dust, and
heard his voice as he spoke the words a generation would embrace, “One small
step for man, one giant leap for mankind.”
These
are stories that most of us know well.
There are stories about which the truth and details may remain
hidden. Some of the tales are lost in
the annals of history or will be forever overshadowed by men of lesser skill
but greater reputation. And
there are stories that no one but the teller of the tale will ever give a fig
about. That is what I would like to
share with you – the moment when the stars in my Heaven blocked out the glare
of game-winning home runs and planting flags in soil 250,000 miles into the
night sky. My
moment came on May 23, 1986. As the
Salutatorian of my graduating class, I stood just off stage, waiting for the
graduation ceremony to begin. Not being
able to help myself, I was constantly peeking through the edge of the curtains
in an attempt to spot my family. I
first spotted my father. He was easy to
locate, with his unique mannerisms and decked out in that year’s trendiest
t-shirt and work jeans. My dad never
was a suit-and-tie man, but I didn’t care - I was just glad to see him. Once
I had located him, my mother was easy to pick out. I don’t know why I can’t tell you what she was wearing. It is not a matter of indifference, just
that my mom always radiated with the beauty that only a child can see, whether
she was thirty-five or sixty-five. Teachers
ushered us away from the curtains so that we might begin the ceremony. The stage curtains were closed and the
lights dimmed. Chairs, already lined at
center stage, were filled by the graduating class – all six or eight of
us. The curtain was parted and lights
raised, presenting the graduating class of 1986, and perhaps displaying a
misplaced sense of theatrics as one or two of us who could actually see failed
to find our proper chair. As
they spoke our names and handed us our certificates, a process that you might
imagine was not a lengthy one, I scanned the audience once again. I was about to return my focus to the
ceremony when my eyes caught something unusual in the periphery. I
couldn’t believe it. He had actually
done it. Let
me back up for a second and give you some background. Whether your pantheon of heroes consists of the boys of summer,
cowboys who wear their hats with the brims pulled slightly down, or musicians
that can make their guitars harmonize with every beat of your heart, you will
inevitably find at least one or two closer to home. My
hero, since the ever-so tender age of nine, had been Daniel. I had always loved him; after all, he was my
big brother. Nine years older than me
and the eldest of us four children, he was the gold standard of big brothers. When
I was nine, Daniel joined the army. I’m
not really sure that I entirely understood what a soldier was or did, but I had
seen enough movies and read enough books to know that these were the good guys -- they swooped in and saved the helpless,
beat the bad guys, and always got the girl.
How is possible to get much cooler than that? I
still remember being picked up at school and climbing into the family van to
make the trip to Alabama to see Daniel graduate from basic training. Once again, I don’t think I had a true
concept of what a big moment this must have been for him. The only fact that was evident to me was
that Mom had been smart enough to buy me books to read and keep me quiet and
occupied throughout the trip. Time
passed as it has a habit of doing.
Although I got older, and fine-tuned my being a “pain in my parent’s
butt”, I was still like a kid on Christmas every time I got a letter from
Daniel, posted from what I was sure was some incredibly exotic location. The ones I always thought were the coolest
were Hawaii and Panama. He
even brought me back a machete from Panama.
Although I’m sure that it was probably something that had very little
monetary value and that it would doubtfully cut away brush even if the brush
were brittle and partially broken anyway, I felt like I could conquer the
savages of foreign lands single-handedly when I held it. Sometime
during my junior or senior year, I asked him to make me a promise. He thought about my request, smiled, and
said yes. It was a promise that I’m not
sure that I even remembered until that day in May of ’86. Yes,
as I hear you breathe a sigh of relief that the backstory has been told, we are
now back at the graduation ceremony and what I saw. What I saw was the keeping of a promise, and the single proudest
moment of my life. Standing
to one side of the room, having for one reason or another arrived late, was
Daniel. He stood, not in quite what I
thought was a military manner, leaning against a wall. I was however willing to forgive him that
one slight misstep, for in all else he was perfect. Dressed in all the finery that I had expected and hoped for, was
my brother. He
was beautiful. Not in some movie star
way, but in my own private sense of esthetics.
I felt what an artist feels when he has finally captured, after
twenty-three sketches, that lovely tilt of his model’s chin. I felt what the pitcher feels when he releases
the hanging curveball that he knows the batter will never be able to touch. What I felt was that the image of my brother
that had firmly rooted itself in my mind was finally given life and made valid
by the man I saw leaning against the wall. I
realized sometime around that moment that real heroes aren’t only that perfect
moment of time, they are a composite of several moments and a multitude of
perspectives. I also realized that
Daniel was not my hero only because he was my brother and wore a fancy uniform. He was my hero because he embodied
everything that I believed a man should be – honorable, valorous, disciplined,
and strong. I did my speech and collected my awards. I got pats on the back and best wishes for my future. I felt like a master of the universe that day. As I look back upon that day, the awards and kudos mean fractionally what they meant then. My vision is of a moment when the greatest honor came not from teachers or classmates, but from my brother. |
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